rage

flames rage inside my soul
as i feel door open once more
doors creek open with sounds of screaming
screaming with questions why
why did he leave
why can't he be near me
and the final question
do i exist?
i think about one thing so much within a single day
why can't it get out of my head
it taunts me and makes me wish i mattered
i want to be everything
i want it to want to be around me as much as possible
to hug me
to talk to me
to care for me...even
love me